The Avowal












As swimmers dare

to lie face to the sky

and water bears them,

as hawks rest upon air

and air sustains them,

so would I learn to attain

freefall, and float

into Creator Spirit’s deep embrace,

knowing no effort earns

that all-surrounding grace.

“The Avowal” by Denise Levertov

I dreamt once that I was swept from shore out to sea by a tsunami.  I was swept miles out to sea, miles beyond my ability to swim back to shore.  How did I even know which direction the shore was, in that situation?  In my dream, I began to swim back.  I am used to swimming in the ocean and this water was warm.  Yet, after a couple of miles of continuous swimming, I was exhausted.  Worrying about what to do, I tread water for a moment.  Then, I laid on my back on the surface of the water and I suddenly realized that I could float!  The water would support me!  I did not have to swim or tread water the whole time!  I did not need to try so hard.  And then, in my dream, it was as if the warm water, which was holding me there as I floated, was God.  I could relax.  I would return to shore.  It was only a matter of grace.  And I floated in the embrace of God.